As you might have noticed – if you are one of my very select readers(!) – I have been a bit quiet of late. This is because:
1) I’m busy (not pompous enough to list why)
2) I’m feeling queasy about blogs that are used for self promotion and congratulation and don’t want to be part of that
3) I’ve never been much of a diary writer
4) I’m not entirely sure of the point
However, I like reading other people’s blogs because:
1) I learn stuff
2) I’m nosey
3) It seems quite a good way to catch up on people and news
So – what the hell should I blog about that would be useful, interesting and allow people a bit of nosey time?
I’ve just had a bit of a holiday (where I bumped into Dave Harte in Disneyland – talk about surreal!) and so I’m trying to have a fresh look at all the things I do.
Before I went away I had what I thought was a brainwave as in one day I had a couple of conversations that shocked me about other people’s perception of me:
The first was with a professional colleague who I have a huge amount of respect for. She is very good at what she does and is very efficient and businesslike. Anyway I was feeling terrible as I had invited her to join a committee and she had agreed – but when I sent the papers out for her first meeting I sent them so all the members and held her email back so I could personalise it a bit and make her feel really welcome. Anyway in the end that good intention sat in my drafts box so long she didn’t get enough notice of the meeting and so couldn’t come. I phoned her to ‘fess’ up and grovel and I had the most surprising response.
Instead of a slightly grumpy response I got a delighted response along the lines of: “I’m so glad as now I am not so intimidated by you. People I meet say you are so good that I have been thinking that surely there must be cracks. Now you have shown me a crack I feel so much better!”
This took me back a bit – where does this image come from – I thought that I put out a bit of a rough around the edges image – enthusiastic and committed – but never perfect.
That same day I met with an old friend where it came out that a dear friend of mine who is expecting her first child is a bit panicked by the feeling that she will not be able to live up to my image as a working mother who effortlessly combines a serious career with kids. Sorry – effortlessly?
Have they seen me when the kids jump on my head at 7am – or after I’ve put them to bed and collapsed on the sofa?
No – but I am not trying to hide that bit of myself either?
So – I started to wonder. Should I focus my blog on:
– what I find hard
– mistakes I make
Perhaps this would be a bit more refreshing instead of a blog telling you a I won UK Young Music Entrepreneur 2008 (which I did and I’m still reeling from) and other such self-satisfied stuff…
If all six of you that read this want to give me some feedback I’ll do what I can to respond!